sana layna bhee kaise aadat hay!!!

money,cars,mobiles,food

people around me seem to have nothing to talk about except salaries,new models of mbile phones,latest cars,cricket match and such other shit.Why people are becoming more and more of materialistic nature with each passing day. All the time they claim about getting paid lower than others, tell each other about the people having a luxury car ,showing each other their mobil sets..parties and blah blah.
i feel so sick in this environment..money has never been my priority but now it seems im living for the sake of earning money and all my steps are based on this only reason.
all I need now is sprituallity, i wanna see a person whom i can talk for hours and still dont get bored,who thinks about the country,our religion and how to make the ever worsening situation better,who can make me feel happy..im happy about so many things God has given to me and I am thankful for that but ..... aik khalish see hay dil main
ppl say "hamay kya".
when i ask them to donate something for tsunami victims ...they start laughing..they can spend alot on pizzas, parties but can't spend few reuppes for this cause.
i just wanna leave the office..i dont feel like working today..
what do i really need.. ....

posted by intense 'feeler' @ 12:55 PM 0 comments

thinking & thinking

yes thats true..im sick of myself.i think 2 much and all that thinking is useless..just leading to more useless things to think about.i wont say thinking alot is just fruitless..surely it helped alot in knowing and improving myself . I dont have friends(what kind of person i am??).
i want to be a care free person..happy all the time and not thinking of future.I've seen people with nothing in their hand and still they are happy or perhaps they dont realize whats they have lost or loosig.Im in a better position now..good degree,good job..everytin fine but then too i think alot about what i have to do in future..if im doing right..should i continuew this job or go for something else?.
everytime i end up with the same thing..everything is useless..nothing is permanent..we will die and then we wont have anything..we are misguiding ourselves..we are mislead..we are being brain washed...what we are doing is not what we are supposed to do.
search for myself seems to be endless...will i ever get the moment when i'll feel THIS IS ME!

posted by intense 'feeler' @ 2:44 PM 3 comments